Monday's Diary.

Its 10:23 am. I haven't eaten or had anything to drink today. I have however gone up and down the stairs at least 5 times this morning. I know its bad, but I'm going to skip breakfast and eat an early lunch then put Matthew down for his nap. There is so much soda in the house. When we have soda I drink it like I should be drinking water. I'm going to try to resist.

Its 11:22 and I just finished lunch. I had leftover tuna cassarole. Its so good, even leftover. There's a 2 liter of sunkist calling to me. I want some so bad. I'm thinking about having a small cup, then I wonder if I'll hate myself after. Bought some bottled water yesterday, left it in the car thats not here right now. Not very happy at the moment.

12:24pm- I started to eat a piece of chocolate cake. It didn't taste good, I didn't want it. So I didn't finish it. I poured myself a glass of sunkist, thats what I wanted. It tasted so good. I made a choice, so I'm also making the choice to beat myself up over it. Its a process, and changing my habits isn't going to happen overnight.